I had a profound Near Death Experience during labor with my daughter 13 years ago, and haven’t talked about it much with other people since then. I tried at first, but felt no one really “got” me. I was starting out in a new job as a Physician Assistant, and feared judgement by my peers, so I decided my experience should be something I only talked about with other experiencers. I did connect with others who’d been through a similar thing, but still felt alone and isolated in my life.
During my near transition, I was given knowledge of the truths of our existence, and knew I had to live and share these truths, but wasn’t ready to do that when I returned to my life. Instead, I rationalized away my experience, and told myself it was a wonderful thing that happened, but I couldn’t possibly live the truths in my earthly life that I’d been given in the afterlife. It would require profound changes in me and outside me, and would only disrupt everything. I was having trouble getting through the day as it was, so my answer was to keep these truths to myself, and go on with my life.
This led to emotional struggles and a deep, pervading sense of feeling unfulfilled. I knew my experience meant something, but I couldn’t bring myself to acknowledge its profundity.
This worked up until about three years ago, when the issues I was having in my life came to a head and I had no choice but to listen to my divinity and live the wisdom of what I’d learned in the afterlife. What happened when I applied all that I learned was miraculous. Absolutely miraculous.
My life changed drastically, and when I changed, so did my husband and daughter. Our family was suffering. I was unhappy, my husband was ill, and as a result our daughter struggled as well. All of these things drastically improved, and today we are stronger individually and as a family unit. The enormity of this brings tears to my eyes. What a gift these lessons were, and continue to be every day.
I’ve come to a place where I am ready to share my experiences with others so as to serve my fellow divine spirits. I wish to help give others peace of mind and hopefully aid in their emotional healing as well. That is my main purpose for being here, on this Earth, in this body. This is what we are all here to do.
I died on July 17, 2000 at 9:18 am. On July 17, 2000 at 9:26 am, I returned to life. I will share the details later in another blog, but suffice to say, I had a NDE and it was amazing beyond human expression.
I was fundamentally transformed by my NDE. It was hugely profound and life-changing in so many ways, and when I talk about it to others, I feel like I can’t do it justice with mere words. Until now, I haven’t actually shared it with many people. I mean, I’ve spoken to a few people here and there, but never really got into the meat and potatos of it with anyone.
Why have I kept it hidden, you ask? Fear. The big “F” word; a word more powerful than that uttered out of the worst contempt. Fear has kept me from speaking about it, nothing else. It goes to show how powerful the ego can be! I mean, who wouldn’t want to share about their experience in the afterlife?
Basically, I was afraid of being judged. I work in the field of medicine, and spend a lot of time with really smart doctors. I’ve never asked them if they believe in the afterlife; it hasn’t come up. I have shared about my experience with one of the ten physicians I work with. This was after telling her my story of cardiopulmonary arrest and dying for 8 minutes. She was amazed I was even here, and I could see the amazement all over her face (so I know she wasn’t just being polite lol). She just kept saying “You shouldn’t be here!” Of course, she meant that, medically speaking, I shouldn’t have survived. That’s what all my doctors said, too, but for many years I didn’t really grasp the enormity of this. Again; ego, fear, denial…whatever you want to call it, it was my dragon that needed to be slayed.
My fear of being judged is virtually gone. This happened right along with a growing, unrelenting desire to share about my experiences. Through doing this, it is my hope that others will benefit in some way by give someone who’s suffering peace of mind , satisfy one’s curiosity, or just be a form of entertainment on a boring Saturday night. I don’t know, and it really doesn’t matter….what matters is: It fulfills a need in someone that needs fulfilling. If so, then my efforts have been worthwhile.
What is my message?
It’s about love. Love of self, love of others, and love of the world. Ponder this for a moment…it’s really a profound thing.
It’s about being fearless; of having the courage to be who we are.
Who are we?
We are the physical manifestation of Divine Love. That’s what I call it, although words fall short to accurately describe the whatness of who we are.
So, if we are this love, why aren’t we all able to feel and express it?
Because we have forgotten this. Ego has taken over many of us. Our consciousness is consumed by it. Ego begets fear. Fear hides our true selves, and is the opposite of who we are, which is Divine Love.
That’s the gist of it….but there is so much more under the surface of this explanation. I delve into it much further in my book.
My writing is in the early stages, and I’ll be blogging about it as I go along. I’d like to invite all of you to join me on my journey….to chime in and send me comments, share your own stories, be fearless!
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Thanks for being here. I’m grateful for each and every one of you. Truly.
Much love to you all,
“The foundation of our ‘self’ was set long ago. We are here to remember this, gather the tools we need, then build upon it.” ~ Krista Gorman
- My Experience of the AfterLife (michaelparapsycholgist.wordpress.com)
- Book Review: ‘Proof of Heaven: A Neurosurgeon’s Journey into the Afterlife’ by Dr Eben Alexander (pacejmiller.com)
- Science Now Proves Reincarnation: A Look At The Soul’s Journey After “Death” (collective-evolution.com)
- ‘Afterlife’ Feels ‘Even More Real Than Real,’ Researcher Says (thecontroversialfiles.net)
- afterlife – part two: Dr. Eben Alexander (hunt4truth.wordpress.com)
- Neuroscience Struggles to Explain Near Death Experiences (theepochtimes.com)