I don’t know about you but when I first heard about meditation I could only identify with it as a concept. I wasn’t at the point in my life where I cared enough about my well-being and improving it other than through the relatively brief satisfaction we get when we acquire material things. I certainly wasn’t happy in my life really because I wasn’t happy within myself.
It was only when I’d hit an emotional bottom that meditation was something I felt the very real impulse to try. When it came down to it, I just wanted to feel better. I’d spent years and years feeling discontented and lacked joy in my life. I’d been looking outside myself for happiness and now it was time to go within.
But where was it? Where was that “place” of peace inside me? I had to find it.
At the same time as I was discovering meditation, I was also very slowly integrating my near death experience into my life. The Love I’d experienced was who and what I was, it was who and what we all are and before I returned to my body I’d been asked to share it with others. During the same years I’d spent being unhappy in my life I’d been ignoring the message of my NDE. I ignored it because it required for me to love me. I had to learn how to love me first before I could share it with others.
I had always known this, that self love was key but didn’t really know how to cultivate it. I’d tried using what I knew, like trying to be a good person, being good to my body, etc. What it took though was rigorous self love. Putting me first. Getting in touch with “me”, that magnificent, eternal, sublimely beautiful being I was in the afterlife. I was love and I knew how it felt. I had to get back to that here, in the body, so that I may truly share it with others as I’d promised.
Meditation was the doorway for me to enter into the space where my question “how do I do this” was answered. It was and is where I find my self again and again. It was there that the Twelve Principles For Daily Living were found. These Principles are my near death experience. When practiced, they encompass my experience and help bridge the “gap” between this world and the realm of divine love I’d felt in the afterlife.
Now, the second important aspect to my NDE was that I was co-creating it with the loving universe. I and “it” were creating it for me. It wasn’t a conscious thing on my part, I participated through using my free will to choose and following the impulses of the energy I was in my experience. If I had a desire to go or do I went and did. The description is a bit involved and I won’t get into it here but it was all a gorgeous lesson and confirmation of why I’m here and perfect for me to experience at that point in time to help me move along my earthly path.
In meditation, I re-discovered that path. I began to lay the ground work and transform my life. I created the Twelve Principles to help me, to serve as a guide and points of focus for my energy every day. I learned about the Law Of Attraction and began to practice it, never realizing how it was such an integral part of my NDE until many years later. Using these two daily practices, my life has just kept getting better. The lives of those around me are affected in a positive way. My daughter has spent the latter part of her life observing and learning from her mother ways of navigating this world in a way that helps to create peace in the living of it.
It’s been an incredible journey so far. Thank you so very much for sharing it with me.
Much Love! xoxo
Most of us have heard about or know about the Law Of Attraction. It was something that came into my awareness many years after my NDE and was truly key in my moving forward in my life. It, along with finding meditation and then creating the Twelve Principles For Daily Living, which I practiced without abandon. My life depended on it. My daughter’s life depended on it. My family life depended on it. I literally felt like if I didn’t make some deep, drastic, life-long changes in me all would be lost.
That may sound dramatic but it’s true. I had always been an energetically sensitive person and longed for deeply meaningful relationships and experiences in life. When I didn’t get the kind of love I needed from my parents, I decided to put up a barrier of ego and used it to get along, all the while at the same time still yearning for more love in my life.
When I came around to integrating the experience I had in the afterlife into my earthly life, I was able to make the deeply profound connections I hadn’t seen before. My NDE was the Law Of Attraction in action. I was practicing the LOA with Source during my NDE before I knew it existed. It still astounds me to this day. The Law Of Attraction is indeed law. It is law, like our experience of gravity. It is everywhere all the time. It is the stuff of us and the Universe. It’s magical and magnificent and intuitive and natural. It is awe-some!
The Twelve Principles For Daily Living are parallel to LOA. They go hand in hand, like during my NDE. The Twelve Principles help to re-create the feeling of it and LOA guides one in practicing them.
I am still in the process of creating a site where people can go to view what they are and perhaps, if inspired to do so, incorporate them into their lives. I’ve just republished my little book about them on Amazon called I Died And Learned How To Live. It’s one avenue in which to share the message and hopefully help others. That’s why we’re here.
More to follow!
Much LOVE to you!
It’s been apparent to me for a while that we are going through another big shift in this world but over the last month or so it’s even more so. There are multiple things going on that are shaking us up, stirring our emotions, making us think about ourselves and our place in the world and what we want and don’t want. It’s not just about the younger generation sort of angst and discontentment now, it’s about our collective discontentment with “the way things are”.
I am loving all of it. I am loving it within myself. I’m loving all those who are suffering in their own experiences. I’m loving all the politicians and opponents to them and supporters of them. I’m loving the environment in its beauty and destruction. I’m loving the process.
This, all of it, all of the suffering and challenges we’re experiencing are purposeful. They exist to help move us along on our journey here, individually and collectively. They’re in our awareness to remind us we’re not “done” with it. There’s more to know, more to see, feel, touch, smell and hear.
We’re growing and it’s amazing and painful and infuriating and sad and joyous and crazy and beautiful all at once. We have a moment by moment choice to flow with it or resist. One is easy the other not so much.
Much Love to you! xox
Yesterday I was in the midst of my day and found myself reflecting on the many things I have to do and how I hoped it would all go smoothly. Then I thought about how I would feel if things didn’t go smoothly. Sometimes my knee-jerk reaction to a wrench being thrown into the mix can cause me to wobble. My center is lost for a little while and I send myself off spinning toward the negative aspects of whatever is happening. I wish I wasn’t so busy, I wish I had more time, I wish I wish I wish.
The thing is, it’s all ok. The many things I have going on, the occasional wrenches thrown in, the hiccoughs. All of it is purposeful. My wishing for more of anything, when wished from the energy of frustration or a place of non-acceptance of “what is” doesn’t bring me any closer to my wish than I was before. In fact, it keeps me from it. It keeps it from me.
Life will happen, wrenches happen. Allowing for the wrenches to be there and appreciating them as guides, as markers, along the journey which may in fact lead to an even better place, a better outcome than I’d anticipated feels far better than the feeling of angst that comes with things not going as planned.
It’s in the movement forward that the wrenches (and the smooth parts) get left behind and a whole new landscape of life opens up. Those wrenches can be carried along too but they tend to get really heavy.
Love you all! xox
How often do you find yourself doing or having to do something you don’t want to do? For me, there’s a little voice inside saying “I really need to do xyz” or “I should do xyz” or “I wish I didn’t have to do xyz” and within the feeling of the words “need to do” and “should do” and “wish I didn’t have to do” is the energy of resistance and it doesn’t feel good.
So, how do we create the scenario where when considering those things we have an obligation to do or complete or address, where in the doing and completing and addressing it feels good?
Two specific things I have practiced to varying degrees over the years and help to create more ease and peace within me and therefore for those around me are these:
1. View the resisted thing as something that will be helpful to you or someone else and feel appreciation for it. It is good because it’s helping you and you’re worth it.. It’s helping someone else and they are worth it.
2. Know that that thing was put there/created and co-created by you for a higher purpose. Yes, even the five loads of laundry or the dirty car that needs cleaning or the mess that needs to be cleaned up…they came into existence for the purpose of moving you along your path. They are the little markers along the way showing us ourselves by how we feel about them. When we are in a place of allowing for life to flow without resistance, those things that are placed in front of us we view with allowing. Being present in the moment we are in, completing the task with gratitude, knowing it is there for us to practice, if nothing else, presence and gratitude and acceptance.
My daughter, my only child, has gone off to college. In her absence is also the absence of the things I did to care for her while she was here. My work load at home is less. Yay! But, having it also meant she was here. Yes, I miss her already! Lol. Maybe I’ll text her again…;)
Much love to you today!
My husband, Ainsley, who still lives in the UK as we go through the process of his immigrating to the US, has been diagnosed with cancer. We still don’t know the type of cancer it is but we know what we’re doing about it.
This didn’t happen by accident. This didn’t happen by chance. It’s happening for many reasons and mostly to provide an opportunity to deeply grow into more expansive love in all respects. Love for self, others, circumstances, experiences, etc. It is an infinitely powerful force that informs our existence and provides the reference point from which everything else flows.
And Love heals.
Here’s Ainsley’s perspective on things…I wish to share it in the spirit of great Love for you all.
“For all those wonderful people out there who have sent me prayers and loving well wishes, I want to say that I love you all. I had my latest results today, relating to the Testicular Cancer . I was told that the tumour they found is more likely to be some sort of Lymphoma, this means that the tumour has to be tested more specifically to decipher what exactly is occurring. I will have to wait for around 2 weeks before I know anything else. So this is what I have decided ( with my beautiful wife Krista ). I am not going to attach myself to any sort of prognosis because as yet there isn’t one. I’m healing very well from my Op and have continued to feel healthy and well within myself. I am on a journey with the deepest truest sense of love and it’s power. I am sharing this now because I want to be an example to others that, walking through our lives with love reveals the abundance of life. I am a powerful force in my own life and when I want something I always get it. My ultimate desire is to live and serve with Krista, this I will achieve. I made a statement a long while ago that stands more true today than ever. I told Krista that to be with her I would move mountains and that there is nothing that can stop me. I revised that today by adding that if I needed to I would take the mountain apart block by block. For my dear friends who read this, hold only joy for me because I remain joyful. Feel happiness with me because I am happy. I knew coming into this life ( and was reminded during my NDE ) that there would be certain experiences which would shape me, I feel deeply in my soul that they are on my path, not to test me, but to help me love more, inspire more, to share more and to continue serving those I am blessed to serve, just because I can“
Much Love to you xox
I. Love. This. Movie.
Not just because I love Hawaii and the Hawaiian culture. Granted, I’ve been to Kauai three times and would happily go back. I could even see me and my husband living in a tiny house on a plot of land with a garden and fresh water to drink from the stream out back….sigh.
Moana is the poster girl for self-empowerment and following your bliss. Her grandmother the epitome of unconditional love and role model for self-love. They show such a beautiful balance of beauty and strength in this film.
The call of our bliss, like the call of the ocean for Moana, is undeniable and will remain until we heed it. Our inner compass will guide us to it again and again, no matter what we do to go in another direction, it will point us toward where our heart wishes us to be every time.
This may present as obstacles along our path, of bumps or blocks along the road. They are not to be disliked or fought against, they are merely little loving nudges from the universe to move in a different direction. They are signs that we are “meant” to be doing something other than that thing.
Human/ego tendency is to be upset when we don’t get what we want. Another way to look at it is that there is something else, something perhaps we couldn’t even imagine for ourselves or maybe we have but don’t think we’re worthy of or strong enough to go for it, something that is waiting out there, beyond the reef and we are meant to go find it. To move through the fear of the turbulent ocean, of the possibility of unknown dangers, knowing we will be guided and guides will show up for us if we are courageous enough to take the adventure.
Much Love and Mahalo to you! xox