I don’t know about you but when I first heard about meditation I could only identify with it as a concept. I wasn’t at the point in my life where I cared enough about my well-being and improving it other than through the relatively brief satisfaction we get when we acquire material things. I certainly wasn’t happy in my life really because I wasn’t happy within myself.
It was only when I’d hit an emotional bottom that meditation was something I felt the very real impulse to try. When it came down to it, I just wanted to feel better. I’d spent years and years feeling discontented and lacked joy in my life. I’d been looking outside myself for happiness and now it was time to go within.
But where was it? Where was that “place” of peace inside me? I had to find it.
At the same time as I was discovering meditation, I was also very slowly integrating my near death experience into my life. The Love I’d experienced was who and what I was, it was who and what we all are and before I returned to my body I’d been asked to share it with others. During the same years I’d spent being unhappy in my life I’d been ignoring the message of my NDE. I ignored it because it required for me to love me. I had to learn how to love me first before I could share it with others.
I had always known this, that self love was key but didn’t really know how to cultivate it. I’d tried using what I knew, like trying to be a good person, being good to my body, etc. What it took though was rigorous self love. Putting me first. Getting in touch with “me”, that magnificent, eternal, sublimely beautiful being I was in the afterlife. I was love and I knew how it felt. I had to get back to that here, in the body, so that I may truly share it with others as I’d promised.
Meditation was the doorway for me to enter into the space where my question “how do I do this” was answered. It was and is where I find my self again and again. It was there that the Twelve Principles For Daily Living were found. These Principles are my near death experience. When practiced, they encompass my experience and help bridge the “gap” between this world and the realm of divine love I’d felt in the afterlife.
Now, the second important aspect to my NDE was that I was co-creating it with the loving universe. I and “it” were creating it for me. It wasn’t a conscious thing on my part, I participated through using my free will to choose and following the impulses of the energy I was in my experience. If I had a desire to go or do I went and did. The description is a bit involved and I won’t get into it here but it was all a gorgeous lesson and confirmation of why I’m here and perfect for me to experience at that point in time to help me move along my earthly path.
In meditation, I re-discovered that path. I began to lay the ground work and transform my life. I created the Twelve Principles to help me, to serve as a guide and points of focus for my energy every day. I learned about the Law Of Attraction and began to practice it, never realizing how it was such an integral part of my NDE until many years later. Using these two daily practices, my life has just kept getting better. The lives of those around me are affected in a positive way. My daughter has spent the latter part of her life observing and learning from her mother ways of navigating this world in a way that helps to create peace in the living of it.
It’s been an incredible journey so far. Thank you so very much for sharing it with me.
Much Love! xoxo
How often do you find yourself doing or having to do something you don’t want to do? For me, there’s a little voice inside saying “I really need to do xyz” or “I should do xyz” or “I wish I didn’t have to do xyz” and within the feeling of the words “need to do” and “should do” and “wish I didn’t have to do” is the energy of resistance and it doesn’t feel good.
So, how do we create the scenario where when considering those things we have an obligation to do or complete or address, where in the doing and completing and addressing it feels good?
Two specific things I have practiced to varying degrees over the years and help to create more ease and peace within me and therefore for those around me are these:
1. View the resisted thing as something that will be helpful to you or someone else and feel appreciation for it. It is good because it’s helping you and you’re worth it.. It’s helping someone else and they are worth it.
2. Know that that thing was put there/created and co-created by you for a higher purpose. Yes, even the five loads of laundry or the dirty car that needs cleaning or the mess that needs to be cleaned up…they came into existence for the purpose of moving you along your path. They are the little markers along the way showing us ourselves by how we feel about them. When we are in a place of allowing for life to flow without resistance, those things that are placed in front of us we view with allowing. Being present in the moment we are in, completing the task with gratitude, knowing it is there for us to practice, if nothing else, presence and gratitude and acceptance.
My daughter, my only child, has gone off to college. In her absence is also the absence of the things I did to care for her while she was here. My work load at home is less. Yay! But, having it also meant she was here. Yes, I miss her already! Lol. Maybe I’ll text her again…;)
Much love to you today!