My husband, Ainsley, who still lives in the UK as we go through the process of his immigrating to the US, has been diagnosed with cancer. We still don’t know the type of cancer it is but we know what we’re doing about it.
This didn’t happen by accident. This didn’t happen by chance. It’s happening for many reasons and mostly to provide an opportunity to deeply grow into more expansive love in all respects. Love for self, others, circumstances, experiences, etc. It is an infinitely powerful force that informs our existence and provides the reference point from which everything else flows.
And Love heals.
Here’s Ainsley’s perspective on things…I wish to share it in the spirit of great Love for you all.
“For all those wonderful people out there who have sent me prayers and loving well wishes, I want to say that I love you all. I had my latest results today, relating to the Testicular Cancer . I was told that the tumour they found is more likely to be some sort of Lymphoma, this means that the tumour has to be tested more specifically to decipher what exactly is occurring. I will have to wait for around 2 weeks before I know anything else. So this is what I have decided ( with my beautiful wife Krista ). I am not going to attach myself to any sort of prognosis because as yet there isn’t one. I’m healing very well from my Op and have continued to feel healthy and well within myself. I am on a journey with the deepest truest sense of love and it’s power. I am sharing this now because I want to be an example to others that, walking through our lives with love reveals the abundance of life. I am a powerful force in my own life and when I want something I always get it. My ultimate desire is to live and serve with Krista, this I will achieve. I made a statement a long while ago that stands more true today than ever. I told Krista that to be with her I would move mountains and that there is nothing that can stop me. I revised that today by adding that if I needed to I would take the mountain apart block by block. For my dear friends who read this, hold only joy for me because I remain joyful. Feel happiness with me because I am happy. I knew coming into this life ( and was reminded during my NDE ) that there would be certain experiences which would shape me, I feel deeply in my soul that they are on my path, not to test me, but to help me love more, inspire more, to share more and to continue serving those I am blessed to serve, just because I can“
Much Love to you xox
In September 2016 my daughter and I flew to Albuquerque New Mexico to meet Morgan Freeman. Yes, God himself (Bruce Almighty and Evan Almighty references lol). That came about only after I had walked through a lot of fear about sharing my NDE. When I finally did so at an IANDS (International Association of Near Death Studies) conference in 2014, my first ever, I brought a little book I wrote called I Died And Learned How To Live. I put it in the bookstore there and someone bought it. She wasn’t planning on buying anything but saw my book and was drawn to it.
This person brought my story home and shared it at her local IANDS chapter meeting… two years later...and another person was drawn to it. This person had been contacted by Morgan Freeman’s production company months before to help them find people who’d had an NDE to be on their show. They’d settled on someone but weren’t entirely comfortable with them, so this person went home after the IANDS meeting and emailed the contact person for the show, telling them to get in touch with me.
I received an email from them on a Thursday night (they found me through this blog) and was skyping with them the following Monday. Then, my daughter and I were invited to New Mexico to be interviewed by Mr. Freeman.
I was not nervous, nor overly excited. I was grateful to be able to share the message of love. That love has been taught to me by all those who have entered and stayed or entered and left my life. I have felt the deepest love of the universe encompass all that I am, a love without bounds or end. That love has been shown to me in my life. I’ve also experienced its opposite, which helps me to recognize it even more, to desire to have it even more, to be it even more.
We are love. Every thing being and non-being is love energy. At the same time, we are the opposite of love. At any given moment we have the free will to choose love over its opposite–fear, over ego. That’s the beauty of this life, we have the choice. We can choose to experience joy or we can choose to suffer, either way we choose.
For me, right now in this moment, I choose love and I absolutely love you all xox