I learned so many things from my near death experience but the one single thing overarching all the others was experiencing the infinite power of our intentions.
The “events” within my experience were created and co-created with the universal energy I returned to, which was and is love. It taught me how our state of being, our vibe, our disposition, our energy creates our reality. Our thoughts become things. They shape our life and ultimately our world.
Negative thoughts create negative things. Negative thinking perpetuated second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, week by week, well you get the idea-creates a negative life. Other negative people show up, less than desirable outcomes happen, things seem to always go “wrong”. When these things happen in our lives we aren’t victims of circumstance, it’s simply that we lack the awareness of our innate ability to create our lives.
Intention is thought with a purpose. I intend to have a good day, so I direct my thoughts toward the positive. If I find myself in the middle of a negative thought, I turn it around, trying always to be aware of when I’m thinking them. To be aware I pay attention to how I feel as I’m thinking the thought. If it makes me feel good, I go with it. It’s “right” for me. If it makes me feel crappy, I change the thought about what I’m thinking about, or change the thing I’m thinking about. I alter my inner or outer world to create the best possible state of being for me.
I am infinitely powerful. So are you.
Wishing you so much love!
In September 2016 my daughter and I flew to Albuquerque New Mexico to meet Morgan Freeman. Yes, God himself (Bruce Almighty and Evan Almighty references lol). That came about only after I had walked through a lot of fear about sharing my NDE. When I finally did so at an IANDS (International Association of Near Death Studies) conference in 2014, my first ever, I brought a little book I wrote called I Died And Learned How To Live. I put it in the bookstore there and someone bought it. She wasn’t planning on buying anything but saw my book and was drawn to it.
This person brought my story home and shared it at her local IANDS chapter meeting… two years later...and another person was drawn to it. This person had been contacted by Morgan Freeman’s production company months before to help them find people who’d had an NDE to be on their show. They’d settled on someone but weren’t entirely comfortable with them, so this person went home after the IANDS meeting and emailed the contact person for the show, telling them to get in touch with me.
I received an email from them on a Thursday night (they found me through this blog) and was skyping with them the following Monday. Then, my daughter and I were invited to New Mexico to be interviewed by Mr. Freeman.
I was not nervous, nor overly excited. I was grateful to be able to share the message of love. That love has been taught to me by all those who have entered and stayed or entered and left my life. I have felt the deepest love of the universe encompass all that I am, a love without bounds or end. That love has been shown to me in my life. I’ve also experienced its opposite, which helps me to recognize it even more, to desire to have it even more, to be it even more.
We are love. Every thing being and non-being is love energy. At the same time, we are the opposite of love. At any given moment we have the free will to choose love over its opposite–fear, over ego. That’s the beauty of this life, we have the choice. We can choose to experience joy or we can choose to suffer, either way we choose.
For me, right now in this moment, I choose love and I absolutely love you all xox
This is a topic that came up in conversation today around my NDE and coming back…how did I continue living in this 3D world knowing what I knew?
It wasn’t easy. I spent so much time going around and around in my head about what I knew happened and what my ego wanted to tell me didn’t. The ego-aspect of myself was fearful of the fact that if I consciously acknowledged my experience in the afterlife, I’d have to change…drastically. It wasn’t an option, it was a necessity. My “old” life wasn’t what my higher self, my ego-less self, desired and required to exist in. So imagine: a newly graduated Physician Assistant, a brand new mother, a cardiac arrest patient trying to recover, and the wife of a touring musician completely changing their life because of a near death experience…
It didn’t happen. Not for a while, anyway. So, I had to adapt and assimilate and figure out how to live in this world knowing what I knew. I actually remember making the decision to forget about my NDE and focus myself on my life. I had to live rather than simply exist but my soul’s purpose was higher than just existing yet, I couldn’t reconcile the two no matter how hard I tried. And boy, did I try.
Many unhappy years later I found myself miserable and basically alone. I had my beautiful daughter, whom I absolutely lived for. I wasn’t living for myself, or my husband. My NDE was a constant through many ups and downs and changes in my life, always there, nagging at me to pay attention to it. Finally, one day when I’d had enough, I decided to revisit it and wrote my experience down. The whole thing, from start to finish and actually felt it through. I found myself in tears wanting desperately to be able to carry the incredible infinite love of the universe with me, to feel it permeate every bit of my soul, to merge collectively with it once again. I remember being angry at myself for digging it up again, feeling the frustration and pain of not knowing how to use it in my life when something hit me. I became acutely aware of what I needed to do. It was very simple, the message of my NDE. Love. Love is all. All is love. I am love and loved beyond measure.
Love was the answer and it was where my work began. Learning how to live in this world as that love was one of the reasons I came back. The other was to meet the person who would help me on my path back to myself. Overarching it all was being a mother and guide to my daughter. I’m doing all those things and will continue to do all these things until my last breath is taken once again.
It’s truly a journey.
Love to you on yours. Lots and lots of it. xox