“The doctor I would want for myself or for anyone else I cared about would be one who understands that disease is more than just a clinical entity; it is an experience and a metaphor, with a message that must be listened to“
Several years ago when my husband was very ill, I was in the midst of my own sort of illness. It had started many years before after my near death experience I had during labor with my daughter. I’d spent the years since then wrapped up in this internal struggle where I was afraid of being the love I learned I was in the afterlife, yet knew I had to be that person in order to live the Iife I came here to live. I was miserable.
For 8 months we didn’t know what was wrong with my husband, and I spent that time caring for him and our daughter while also working on my self. I knew that I needed to figure out a way to be happy, to live in better alignment with who I was and therefore be able to be there more fully and completely for my family.
During that process, that 8 months of uncertainty, I’d never felt more alive in my life. The inner work I was doing helped me be present and fearless and accepting and confident in knowing that no matter what, everything was going to be just fine. I was the rock my family stood upon when they had nothing to hold them up. I created that rock, and I wasn’t alone in that creation.
I took what I learned in the afterlife and applied it to my life here. I began living my life differently, every moment of every day I focused on positive change and began to experience those changes not only within myself, but in my husband and daughter as well.
The Twelve Principles For Daily Living were the things I practiced. They were the conduits for healing in my life and the lives of my husband and daughter. I present them in my book, I Died And Learned How To LIve, and am working on a book that is just about the Twelve Principles.
There are no words that can adequately express the gratitude I have for the experience of going through 8 months of, what could have been, emotional torture. I was given that opportunity so I could get real and get serious about figuring out how to live my life better, how to practice being the person I knew I was but didn’t know how to be.
Today, I practice an attitude of gratitude. There is so much to be grateful for.
My job is in medicine and I meet a lot of people every day. I love everyone. Everyone is deserving of my love, especially those who seem to suffer more than others, like the homeless alcoholic who I later learned had been a Obstetrition at one time, or the distraught young woman who cut her wrist after her boyfriend broke up with her. My words to her were simple, “You don’t have to live this way, and you know it.” I could feel her energy shift at that moment. I cared for a middle-aged obese woman with high blood pressure who obviously wasn’t taking care of herself. As I left the room, my words to her were “Do what you know you need to do for yourself. You’re worth it.” She and her husband’s jaws dropped at that, literally. I laughed a little, knowing she’d remember it and maybe get back in touch with the love she is.
I’m not bragging or blowing my own horn, I just believe we need to focus on and talk more about love. When we do, it carries that love energy outward, all around us. In the presence of love, there can’t be hate. No fear. Just Love.
Lots of Love to You!
Fear. Such a powerful four-letter word.
It holds us back from fully expressing our divine nature, and is the exact opposite of what we are in our essence, which is love.
Ego and fear are the same thing. Where there is fear there is ego. Where there is ego, there is fear. Love cannot exist where ego and fear exist. Where love cannot exist, our divine nature cannot be expressed. When our divine nature cannot be expressed, our lives are under-lived and their full potential under-realized.
Live from love today.